It seems like a huge waste.. Going through life blindly. Feeling your way.. Guessing at whatever lesson god is trying to teach you. Then arriving at the end point, and realizing that you spent the entire journey looking behind you instead of looking ahead.
Would you rely on a road map that was 2,000 years old for navigating a modern city? Then why use a religion that was invented 2,000 years ago for navigating modern life?
Live your life! Take charge of your own journey! You'll make mistakes; learn from them. You'll get lost; but you'll find your way.